I sit here and think, if I close my eyes, I'll awaken to you ringing the bell asking what am I cooking. I knew if I wanted to see you, all I had to do was cook. We'd sit and laugh over Jalen's recent antics. You would bring me up to date with Marissa and the baby and we'd vision cast over all of the plans you wanted to do to make a good life for you and them. I taught you to speak it and you would receive it. We had such plans for our growing family. You sat before me just the week before and apologized for ever disappointing me, ever making me cry or worry about you. I assured you that my love for you covered all past indiscretions. I told you being a parent; you will make mistakes, even in your every attempt of wanting to do the best. How your child wouldn't always like you, but you want them to love and respect you. I told you that ministry inside of you was so dynamic and how you will affect so many people in your life. Just continue to seek God's face and direction. I told you how very proud of you I was. I didn't know we would finish this conversation with you being in Heaven sitting besides the Father. He told me He loaned you to me for a short time such as this and that your work here here is done. I am so blessed that God chose me to nurture you, speak life into you and assist you in being the great man of God that you was. You was my very best friend. You took care of me and Jalen to the end. Jalen is so proud to be your little brother and counts it an honor to fulfill your brother promise you two made, to always do his best and strive to take care of mommy. This is not goodbye, this is so long for now. I know not the plans of God but I trust Him enough to know He will send comfort to all who you have touched. Marissa and the baby are forever apart of our family. We will raise this baby to know even though you aren't there for them in the flesh, you left here honorably protecting his/her mom. I can't say enough how much I love and miss you and how you will forever live in our hearts. Hold it down until I see you again my son!!! Trinity Forever.... Mommy, Teddy and Jalen