My baby. My heart. Here we are again. Another 20th. Another reminder of that day. 6 Months ago and yet it feels like yesterday, so fresh. It's now 4:30. This time 6 months ago, I was pacing the hospital floors praying for your recovery while you was in surgery. I prayed for the doctors, all involved. I learned later that it was 52 people involved in trying to save you. Jalen tried to thank as many as he could that night. My baby. He asked the personnel he came upon, " Did you help try to save my brother?" When they said yes, he said "Thank you....". Even in the moment, I watched God work. These days don't get easier Teddy. I declare, as the numbness wears off, it seems to get worse. Didn't know it was possible, but I seem to miss you more everyday. I think of things I didn't get a chance to say, but it so crazy..... our last conversation was so in-depth, it was almost like you knew it was to be our last. I think we talked about everything that was important, displayed all emotions. I have never felt so close to you before, so proud of you. I had the clear feeling in my heart that you........was going to be alright. To say I'm sorry to be even having to write on this site would be an understatement. To say that I love and miss you wouldn't touch the mark. So I'm going to just say, on this 6th month of your leaving me on this earth, I pray that you know every breath I take, I take for my kids and granddaughter. I wont stop until you receive justice. I wont stop telling everyone who listens about my son who believe it or not, helped raise ME. You made me a better woman, mother and person. God brought us together and I will continue to walk this journey with my personal angel by my side. I'll always listen for your voice in my ears and heart. 6 Months gone but Forever my heart, Forever 19. Trinity Forever and a day.....