My son......... If my tears were steps to heaven, I would of been there with you a long time ago. As I continue to go through these days, trying to literally get to the end of them so I can get home to be with you alone, I am reminded. I hear you tell me not to worry, I hear you tell me how much you love me. I know you see me and I feel you. All I can is, I'm trying Teddy. One more time, one more moment, one more tear seems like. Your daughter is so very beautiful and I am so proud of the father you would of been. I see you a part of her life even not being here in the physical, I see her looking behind me every time I hold her as if you are are there. Silly statement, I know you are there. Anyway, I'm tired now because my nights seems so long and restless. I love you sooooooooooo much. I'll talk to you soon, ok son???