THIS WILL BE MY 2ND CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU TEDDY AND MY 1ST WITHOUT GRANDDAD GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW MUCH I AM MISSING YOU BOTH SO VERY MUCH, PLEASE HELP ME WITH THIS PAIN IN MY HEART I AM SO LOST AND ALONE EVEN WHEN I AM AROUND OTHER PEOPLE I SMILE AND LAUGH TO KEEP FROM CRYING. BUT I AM JUST A WALKING SHELL, YOU ARE ALWAYS ON MY MIND I BE FEELING YOU RUBBING MY BACK A LOT IS THAT YOUR WAY OF TELLING ME THAT IT WILL BE OKAY ONE DAY? BECAUSE IT REALLY FEELS LIKE I AM ALONE. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER TEDDY XOXOXOXOXO