Teddy, my baby, my 1st born son. How I miss you soooooo very much. People say that each year will get better but they lie so much. I'm not even putting up a tree this year unless God speaks to me and so far, HE hasn't on that topic. I keep thinking of so many memories of the both of you together having such a good time for Christmas and i'm having such a hard time. I love you son, please be patient with me. Speak to God on my behalf. Still trying to understand why my 19 year old baby boy is not here with us.