Today makes 2 months since you have been gone my love. Each day seems like it is worse than the last for me. I know that there are so many great people in our lives. I can't help but feel so alone. We took care of each other. We was the trinity against the world. We had dreams, we had over came so much together. We was going to finally get all of the things we had been praying for. I believed you. You turned your life around, you finally believed in yourself. You was going to finally follow your dreams as you build new ones for you and Marissa and the baby. I believed you could do it. I will get it together eventually. I know I have to. I know that I will have to be here for Jalen and the baby and I will do everything I have to do, Teddy. I know that you will get justice, those boys will get what is due to them. I believe God. I don't understand why He allowed my world to be broken like this but I know that I am not capable of understanding all of His thoughts. I wish you was here so much. I know that Thanksgiving is your favorite holiday. I will be alone here at home. I don't want to be around anyone. I want to be here with you. I wont ever leave you my son. I love and miss you so very much.