I don't know why these seem to be the hardest days of the week for me. I guess because these were definitely 'our' days. I knew you was coming to spend quality time with us, eat well, watch a movie together and block out all that is going on in the world. It was just about me, you and Jalen. I go look at the newsfeed timeline on facebook. It is so wild seeing people, live.... go on with their lives, living normal lives. I don't know what that is anymore baby. I think about my life just 2 1/2 months ago. My biggest worry when I thought I had so much going on, was what to cook for dinner that night, that Jalen would eat with his finicky self. Making sure I had heard from you that day and that you had eaten. Seeing how Marissa was feeling. Setting up a time for you to do the laundry and grocery shopping. We had a world within our world. We didn't intrude on anyone else's and was content with not inviting anyone into ours. My God, what a difference a month makes. I just wanted to come and tell you how much I love and miss you soooooooooooo bad. I am trying to even fathom a thought of living without you, building a new normal. That wont be happening anytime soon. I can't move on without you. I don't know how.