Teddy, I miss you so very much. I am trying so hard to get through each day a little bit stronger than the last, but it the opposite. I feel like each moment is harder and harder without you being here with me. The holidays are here and it doesn't seem like anything to celebrate without you. I do understand God is great and I'm thankful for another day but I'm still trying to understand why you aren't here with me. I try over and over and over to make sense of it all. I just want you to come home.