What am I supposed to say? Happy anniversary? Another feather for your wing? How blessed I am to have had the time I did with you? I'm tired of being politically correct. Giving the safe answers people are comfortable enough to hear but shallow enough only to get me home breaking down in anxiety because I put on yet another good show getting through yet another day not having having a mental break down. No its not fair! You was 19 just beginning to live with so much potential and I am NOT supposed to be doing this without you. It's just that simple. You was the strong one. I depended on you. You knew how much I could bear and always knew how to protect your mother. I'm fighting blind here. Motivated by love and anger and fueled only with knowledge that you are with me still but not the way I need you to be. I'm so sorry Teddy. I how I make you proud. Please don't ever leave me completely. I miss you so much.....